I've kinda stalled on the trying to fund our IVF front, for one reason: I am so nervous about telling my sisters!
My mom was so supportive and really kind about the whole thing but my sisters? I am just not sure how they will respond. My biggest concern with them is that they will be upset and hurt that I didn't tell them sooner.
My mom suggested that I just email them both, so no one is getting more or less info than the other, in case I accidentally omit something during conversation. I know that one of my sisters hates getting news via email, but I just couldn't get up the nerve to call her this weekend. I picked up the phone three or four times and just couldn't do it.
DH also says I should just email them to avoid the drama and three hour long conversations that would ensue but I haven't been able to pull the trigger! I've been at this alone for so long, it feels weird to think of actually being open about it.
I am oddly calm about, not only having our cycle cancelled, but about moving onto IVF in general. I think it's definitely a case of the more you know the less you worry. If I didn't know of the experience of the gals on TB and IDOB, I think I would definitely be more scared but it feels like the right thing to do. I am actually more comfortable with the idea of IVF than I was with IUIs. I never thought I would feel this way.
Perhaps it's my mind recognizing what my body already knows; IVF is our only positive option. It probably has been the whole time and deep down, I've always known it.