I'm awful. I really am. On Saturday, my brother-in-law (DH's youngest brother) got engaged. It was really quite sweet. His finace and he met doing Ren Faires, so this weekend while at the Ren Faire, he proposed in front of everyone. My future SIL is very nice and takes great care of my BIL and they have a great relationship. I am truly excited to have her as a SIL, especially considering that my husband's sister is a drug addict psychopath. It will be nice to have a healthy, normal person in the family.
BUT, they immediately started talking kids. She is 37 and they want to get started right away. As in, she threw the BCPs out the day after he proposed. I am absolutely TERRIFIED that they are going to get pregnant right away and I feel terrible that I feel that way. I want to be happy for them and give them lots of encouragement and support, but inside I am seething about something that hasn't even happened yet!
Huge confession: I caught myself thinking that they'll probably have problems getting KU because she is AMA and very overweight. I immediately stopped myself, because I would not wish IF or any difficulty conceiving on my worst enemy. What is wrong with me? This is not who I am!